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I miss the jam sessions during Summer 2012.

Sat, 19 Jan 2013 18:16:57 -0800

I miss the jam sessions during Summer 2012.

I make things look so much easier than it seems. I guess that’s why some people think I’m...

Fri, 18 Jan 2013 16:46:22 -0800

I make things look so much easier than it seems. I guess that’s why some people think I’m emotionally content. The thing is, having the things you want doesn’t compare to having good relationships with everyone. At the same time, it’s not always good to want something but having no goals would be just as bad.

It does not matter what happened. All that matters is the emotion that was felt. Actions and events...

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 22:31:41 -0800

It does not matter what happened. All that matters is the emotion that was felt. Actions and events may be easily forgotten but the feelings incorporated with them remains in mind.

It’s been a while since I have put my thoughts into this blog. Most of the unspoken thoughts are...

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 09:09:36 -0800

It’s been a while since I have put my thoughts into this blog. Most of the unspoken thoughts are written in my private blog, but that is not really relevant to this. I just had this sudden urge to publicly write the things I’ve been contemplating. Truthfully, I am not really sure whether this is the smartest idea. I am not even sure if I am going to keep it for a long time. Anyway, the past five months have really been interesting. I have become even more skillful in hiding my feelings to everyone. I’m not sure if it is a good thing or bad. It could mean that I have become more insecure of myself or if I have become more independent on others for helping me feel better about myself. I am not sure whether to explain how hurt I have been or how blessed I have been. I guess you could say both. Of course it is. There have been ups and downs in my life and that is completely normal. I just find it unsettling that the downs have been becoming more memorable than the ups. It is odd coming from me; I have been seeing the negative aspects of life more than the positive aspects. It does help me make sense of what is around me but it also makes me realize how easier it would be if I were by myself. My faith in God has been strengthened through the past year. However my questions about why things are the way they are continues to grow. I see all these hypocrites at church but I realize not everyone is perfect. I still cannot hold myself back from asking, “Why can’t we all be treated the same?” The truth that I have come to terms with is that certain people have a tendency to look down on others in order to prove to themselves that they can be a better person than they have been in the past. Whether this is unconscious or conscious, it does not really matter. All that matters is what you did or what you are doing. I’m really not interested in getting into a philosophical argument about whether serving God is really ideal for everyone. That is their choice and God gave us free will to decide things for ourselves. Aside from my thoughts about God, my friendship with certain individuals have been strengthened. Some have diminished. None of them actually went away however. I do not think I have made many enemies this past year. No doubt I may have made some but not many come to mind right at the tip of my tongue. The thought of whether they will still be in my life in the future always lingers in my mind. However, I quickly dismiss it from my thoughts to prevent myself from thinking about melancholic thoughts. That is another thing I have been doing for a while now, and I have recently noticed about myself. I often forget things on purpose so that the negative feelings do not get to me. I used to do it intentionally but it has been becoming easier to the point where I can’t even control what I forget anymore. Things that I want to remember never stick anymore. I guess it is a coping mechanism I’ve grown accustomed to. Family life has not been the best. It definitely is better than the past but not to the point where I’m content. I’ll conclude my monotonous post here. One last bit of information: I am content with my life in general. The pros further outweigh the cons in abundance. Perhaps I’m thinking the cons have a greater intensity while the pros are more prominent. I do believe that quality is greater than quantity. Okay, I will definitely conclude here. My thoughts have become circuitous to the point where I can’t keep track.

My tan line from work is embarrassing. Oh well. I’m wearing a V-neck today because YOLO.

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 06:30:59 -0700

My tan line from work is embarrassing. Oh well. I’m wearing a V-neck today because YOLO.

Today is not my day. Stuff happened that set me in a bad mood then more stuff happened and it piled...

Fri, 24 Aug 2012 19:08:23 -0700

Today is not my day. Stuff happened that set me in a bad mood then more stuff happened and it piled onto that. I just want to go out and walk for a while to clear my thoughts.

My baby! I can’t wait.

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 18:50:50 -0700

My baby! I can’t wait.

It’s ironic how something that once gave me comfort now discourages me.

Sun, 19 Aug 2012 20:04:00 -0700

It’s ironic how something that once gave me comfort now discourages me.

I hope it doesn’t get too hot out at work today. :/

Tue, 14 Aug 2012 08:25:47 -0700

I hope it doesn’t get too hot out at work today. :/

Okay. Y U GOTTA BE LYKE DAT BRAIN? QUIT BEIN’ AN OBSERVIN’ LITTLE MUSH.

Fri, 10 Aug 2012 23:24:57 -0700

Okay. Y U GOTTA BE LYKE DAT BRAIN? QUIT BEIN’ AN OBSERVIN’ LITTLE MUSH.

I’ve come so far in my life. It’s a bit unsettling to look back when I was a young,...

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 20:07:00 -0700

I’ve come so far in my life. It’s a bit unsettling to look back when I was a young, dorky kid. I still am kind of dorky but that cliche saying that “time goes by fast” is painfully true. I look at myself now thinking about the stuff I’ve always wished I could do or have. I’ve always wanted to drive, work, play an instrument, have good friends, and have a good relationship with my family. Now that I have it, it makes me feel pretty old. I know I’m actually young but having a blessed life at this age seems pretty good especially when I see people who are not content with their life. I’m not saying that I have no problems but I know that things are going to look up eventually. Problems don’t just stick around unless you let them. Just smile and be confident.

“Kung gusto merong paraan. Kung ayaw maraming dahilan.”

Tue, 07 Aug 2012 02:17:33 -0700

“Kung gusto merong paraan. Kung ayaw maraming dahilan.”

I want to be able to teleport.

Tue, 07 Aug 2012 02:09:46 -0700

I want to be able to teleport.

I’m back at my house now. I’m really going to miss San Francisco. I’m really going...

Wed, 01 Aug 2012 01:21:49 -0700

I’m back at my house now. I’m really going to miss San Francisco. I’m really going to miss the nice views and the places you could go to in San Francisco. With that being said, it’s also nice to be home again. I know I’m going to go there again so I’ll just wait for that time.

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Tue, 31 Jul 2012 11:07:58 -0700

Every time I think about getting into a relationship I always get stopped by my feelings. I...

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 01:22:20 -0700

Every time I think about getting into a relationship I always get stopped by my feelings. I don’t even know. I get confused and then I start thinking about the future and it intimidates me, I guess. If you think about it it’s either you break up or get married. You either get heartbroken and move on or make a family and (hopefully) spend the rest of your life with that person. I should probably follow my own advice to take a chance once in a while. I still get this weird feeling trying to be in that level with someone. It’s probably because I haven’t been in something like that for a long time. Then again, some people haven’t even been in a relationship so I’m grateful that I’ve had opportunities to be in one.

Today was a pretty good day. I woke up and then I played League and ate some stuff. My...

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 00:06:59 -0700

Today was a pretty good day. I woke up and then I played League and ate some stuff. My cousin’s nephew came over today and they hung out hear for a while. They were so loud but you know kids will be kids. I showered then played League until 4 PM. We went to Fisherman’s Wharf again. We went to the Crab Shack to make a reservation. Me and my cousin walked around Pier 39 because we had to wait an hour and a half for a seat. We went to a couple stores to look around. Me and my cousin went to Photobooth. haha After that Nikki’s mom called her then we went back to Crab Shack. Duuudeeee. They had good food there. I ate crabs, shrimp alfredo, and grilled shrimp. I also tried mussels for the first time. It was pretty good but it had a weird texture. I didn’t get full though. My cousin and I went to find some food because I was still hungry. We went to the Crepe Shack and I bought this strawberry-banana with Nutella crepe. Dudee, so good. After that we went home and I took a shower and played League. I’m about to sleep soon.

The past two days have been interesting. My cousin and I went to the mall and we walked around for a...

Sat, 28 Jul 2012 23:02:23 -0700

The past two days have been interesting. My cousin and I went to the mall and we walked around for a little bit. We met my cousin’s friend over at Pho Garden; they had cheap pho there. After that we went to this yogurt place and then headed to the music place again. :D We walked around for a little bit. They went to Hot Topic while I browsed at Gamestop. I’m seriously considering buying Dark Souls. Uh, after that we met up with my cousin’s other friend and we hung out at McDonald’s so the adults could eat. Tony and I, my cousin’s friend’s brother, just talked about Minecraft while we were there haha. When we got to their house we played some Dark Souls and then some League of Legends. We pretty much gamed the whole night and I slept at around 8 AM. I woke up at around 10 AM to Yasmine’s impression of Mickey Mouse. I must say it was pretty good because I seriously thought that was Mickey Mouse, until she cussed. hahaha But yeah, we ate breakfast then gamed some more until we left at around 4 PM. I ate when I got home then showered. I played League some more and then Minecraft. haha Wow, I don’t think I’ll be able to play this much if I didn’t have so many friends who played with me.

The past couple days have been mostly uneventful. The only thing I remember happening is that my...

Thu, 26 Jul 2012 22:29:00 -0700

The past couple days have been mostly uneventful. The only thing I remember happening is that my cousin and I helped my uncle throw away some junk. We got some money for it so I didn’t mind doing the dirty work. haha Lately, I’ve been feeling a bit off. It’s probably because I’ve been staying in the house doing nothing but stay on the computer. Tomorrow will be different though. I’m going to hang out with my cousin’s friend at the mall then we’re going to sleep over her house. I get to try Dark Souls. :D I got scared today, though. My auntie said that my mom was in the hospital and I called my mom to see if she was okay. It turnsed out that my mom was just visiting her friend. Yeah, on a separate topic: I have this weird feeling that something’s wrong. I think I know why but I’m a little hesitant to get deeper into it because I know it might not be something that will be pleasant.

lmao Juander Squad. xD

Thu, 26 Jul 2012 00:59:27 -0700

lmao Juander Squad. xD